Running on River

To i-shall-be-released xD

- “Life ruiner”: the one with Leo as a damaged Palahniuk character, basically me without tits and being more pretty but also more asshole than IRL Leo (‘cause sure he’s more adorable).

- “Little Elvis”: to compensate the angst of the previous, kinda happy mirror, the one with Rio as a happy Palahniuk character, telling Leo to smoke less and to travel more to Costa Rica.

Zero sex in both.
Prudes probably are so proud of me! XD

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Sneakers fics - Yuletide (7)

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Down to None (MOPI fic)

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submission from riversyellowsunflower:

I really liked your Little Elvis fic

First of all, thanks for reading and for the review :-***
I know fics are not your “thing” and… that’s even better for me ;-)

but weirdly I found it more provocative and subversive than the previous more serious-in-tone Leo/Riv/Chuck inspired fic

Probably  because it’s now River’s voice. You know which one is my most provocative (the one you will never read, muahaha) and not just because of the uniform issues, hehe. In that one I write Riv as a real parody of himself: I attack all the things I can, his things and his people ones (even Reznor… hey, I attack Reznor in “Little Elvis”, he’s the one that named his son “Echo”, I always feel the need to attack him too xD)

There is something particularly brazen about the concept (even clearly fictional, of course) of using River’s rather macabre death as a jumping off point for a tongue-in-cheek riff on his life/faking his death and the subject of anonymity;

But sure you sometimes think about it, uh? In every MOPI-against-the-road moment. I always think of it in those ones. I really believe for a couple of seconds that the bastard is drinking daiquiris in Costa Rica while we’re here sobbing xD

and even in jest/with a more lighthearted tone this time out, the rather cutting commentary and satirical edge concerning some fairly serious subjects in Riverdom - fans, Hollywood, co-stars, directors, etc - feels more ’daring’ than the previous fic (which I enjoyed, and I’m not into fan fic at all), and felt more ‘personal’ to River, or perhaps more precisely River’s persona filtered through your interpretation and voice. 

Maybe again because of Riv’s voice. And because this is a general riophile fantasy, the “what if?”. OK, not in this way (faking death) but the idea of him being alive nowadays. I think I’m better at angs/anger/whatever (I have less experience in happiness, in fics & IRL) but hey, I’m glad you liked this one!! ;-)

I hope you keep these up, I for one find them quite fascinating! Peace Out :-*** the Mug 

I had another idea for this one that maybe I’ll use another day. The “About Adam” idea. I used it in TSN (with Wardo) and people liked it. The main character from others PoV, ones saying he was amazing and adorable, others saying he was a real bastard, and the reality being different from any of those PoV.

I thought about it for this one, but I can’t “see the movie” yet in my head, and I need that. I just saw the end: a crazy riophile, in a mental institution, swearing he’s alive ‘cause she saw him in Costa Rica (with the daiquiris xD) and although he denied being himself, he did the “eyebrows thing” and the girl is completely sure but no one believes her xD

I had other idea but it’s the same: not mind movie yet, so I’ll have to wait (I can’t write if I don’t “see” them). Fairy tales. I like that shit, I also did a TSN one. Keanu PoV. River as Hansel and Martha as Gretel when he met them (although Riv is finally more the witch, you know, he offers us candies and… no escape then xD). Then Riv as Peter Pan (ILYTD), Cinderella, Sleeping beauty (MOPI) and Little red riding hood & the Wolf (dualities always). Riv as Little mermaid. And finally (obviously) Riv as Snow White (one that never wakes up). It’s a sad one so… I need to see it completely ‘cause I don’t want to write a sugary one, but I also don’t want to suffer a lot xD

Hey, I want your “happy AU” now. Will you dare? ;-)

I’ll ask for it in river-prompts!!!

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Little Elvis

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I have an idea for a happy fic

I can’t believe it, Miss Angst doing this, hehe!

But I must be careful with what I listen to while writing, I need happy things ‘cause if I listen NIN or MM or Placebo I’m gonna fuck it up. Maybe Britney & Madonna? Ideas? xD

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That awkward moment in fan fiction…

…when a girl that writes some rape* ones leaves you kudos, and you don’t know if say “Thank you!” or thinking: “Am I doing it wrong?” :-/

* I’m not judging, hey, this is fiction… but I have limits in fics, as everyone has in the end, and explicit rapes are one of mines. I can enjoy a bit non-con playing but I need final or previous “yes”.

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Time to Come: Chapter 1

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ryanrossterbation asked: Oh my God, your english fanfiction had tears streaming down my face by the end of it. Ishara, it was SO GOOD. Especially considering the fact that English isn't your first language. ksdjasdas I can't get over it.

Awww, thank you girl :´´) :-***

I needed to write that one to leave the hate/pain thing out of me. And I thought Leo’s voice (a palahniukirez!leo, not a real one) would work. In fact every time someone says Leo was lucky for doing all those roles I always think that yes, in a “career” sense, but probably not in a personal one: DiCaprio admired Phoenix A LOT so quite sure it was very hard for him being the “substitute” so many years, poor kid.

And not gonna lie: I also wanted to make all those people that hate sex fics (prude reasons or RPF ones) really desire this time would have been there sex there xD

Meh, I can’t write porn, I can’t write adorable things… so the only thing I can give to fandoms is angst xD

Again :-***

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scaryforest asked: that fic was refreshing. i liked it , it was like someone's reflection on things, not things that are actually happened. me gusta. i bet you hate when people say me gusta. lol

1) SO happy now :´)

2) I mean: I know I said if bloodfromthejugular, phoenixovertheriver and riversyellowsunflower liked it, it would be enough. But you know… ;-) I can go from very low self esteem to ego moments, and that is good for my ego ones, hehehe. So I answer you this message here in order to not lose the message (if I answer privately) and treasure your words forever :´)

3) Thank you. THANK YOU. Thank you. And I will say thank you again 200 times in private :-***

4) I’m glad you like the style but I need to be sincere: it’s not mine, just trying to impersonate Chuck. When I read him too much (=always) I tend to copy his “chorus” things, even in Spanish, even IRL. I have no own style. That’s why I hate all the writers I admire xD

5) Riv & fics: I feel in the same way. It’s hard for me writing “him” ‘cause I love him so much that it’s almost impossible, it hurts. So I need to cheat in this way: Riv being there but from other person PoV, or doing a parody (extreme ones). I’m not able to write “serious Rio”, meh.

6) Hahaha, no, I laugh with the “me gusta” thing, love Spanglish xD

And again :-*** (I’m going to buy yo a poney or whatever :D)

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