(mail from Bree)
Hi! First here and then I’ll say more by email, be prepare, today is my spam! Muahahaha!
To the O G from James’s Lonely Mug (abandoned at the bar, is James coming back for me?…),
Your James-me always come back for this pretty mug you are ;-)
Oh, that “who’s this River fella, he’s lovely” comment was just supposed to be a silly joke given my rabid love for the man, clearly I shouldn’t quit my day job to do stand-up comedy, lol.
Ah, sorry. My fault. Really, sometimes I have problems with the language. I mean, I understand very well technical English, but more colloquial things/jokes sometimes are hard for me… hahaha XD
I have insomnia
What a couple we are, dear.
so after an R o R catch-up I thought maybe I should clarify my stance regarding River and the whole anti-drug thing, I might have sounded a bit lax in my previous comments:Yeah, I totally agree that what happened to him should serve as a reminder to young people about drug abuse - whether it be alcohol or prescription pills or serious opiates or nicotine or weed or meth (probably the biggest worry today), there’s a lot of hypocracy about drugs in society - the choices you make shape your life and addiction can be hard to overcome, even a matter of life and death as we know from too many examples of losing our brightest and most creative souls to the perils of drugs.
Yeah, I undesrtand you (and undertood you yesterday… this time, yes). And yeah, all drugs (not just the “hard ones”) can be a problem
What I don’t think was okay was the way it played out — the media dragged River’s name through the mud and mercilessly stigmatized him, exaggerated and outright misreported about him to serve their agenda. They used him as a whipping boy and they had NO RIGHT to do that.
+1
I read on one of the Riv tumblrs someone asking why his family never gives interviews about him; I guess they aren’t aware of just how vicious and unrelenting the media was after River died, how hurtful it was for his family and friends (and fans) to see his life reduced to a cruel media frenzy, the family closed ranks and understandably so, it was a disgrace.
I understand them too, even without the media thing. I mean: for me is hard to talk about my father or my two dead friends, with everyone, and it’s no pression, nor media involved, so I imagine how hard must be with that. I know for many years Joaquin asked in the interview not to “touch” the River issues, and fuck, it’s normal… I would have been in the same way, even worse.
Anyway, I never met any actual fans of Riv’s who turned on him or considered him a liar - mainly just parents and younger people who didn’t ‘know’ him - so you’ve obviously experienced some negative reactions I never have, that’s so sad.
Obviously they were not “true” fans. I mean, it’s normal to be angry (at him) at first, but after that, the more you know about the boy, the more you love him… at least it’s that way for me. I’m more in love with Rio than with “River”, I can relate to him, I can understand him, been there… those things. I don’t want “perfect angels” to admire, I always prefer “troubled souls”, I love the dualities, I love the contradictions… I quite understand than other don’t, than someones prefer perfect clean images of their idols. It doesn’t work in that way for me. I love the kid as he was, with his bright sides and his dark ones… and I usually get angry/fucked-up when I found others than can’t understand my PoV at that and judge him. It’s so easy to judge others… and don’t look into ourselves, ah.
River was so conscious about not letting his fans down, he wasn’t even comfortable having his young followers knowing he smoked because he didn’t want them to start or be a bad influence
Yeah. I almost laugh when I read that. I mean, fucker… you should have smoked more in public (you know me, me and my “things” with that). But again I admire him for that. He was very conscious of a lot of things… maybe too mucho (remembering now his quote).
at a time when a lot of other actors such as Johnny Depp smoked openly and often. The idea that he should have made his drug use public, then when he died it wouldn’t have been such a shock, that’s such a recent bizarre phenomenon, celebrity rehab for public absolution.
Well, some of them even weren’t judged for those things then. I’m thinking in Robert Downey Jr. (another one I love, oh, God, my life is full of addicts xD). Maybe it was for his personality, or the idea people had from him. But in River probably it wasn’t worked. I mean, that image media&producers/agents/whatever built of him would have been damaged, and this could have been no work = no money = what are you fucking gonna do now for mantain your family? I understand the boy didn’t make it public.
Can you imagine how River would have HATED that, all the focus these days on celebrities and their problems instead of what’s really important in the world? My goodness.
Yeah. Probably he had even cried.
I don’t know what happens after we die - I’m not religious at all though I often wonder what becomes of our ‘energy’, does it just dissipate into the universe or pass on to another conscious realm or reincarnate into another life here - I’m curious but also frightened by it.
I wish I could believe… at least in “anything”, not necessary an official religion. It must be kinda comforting, but…
I just hope whatever happens to us after death River didn’t hurt because of how he was treated, I worry about that. I guess I’m just an old mother hen that way, kind of like how River was, he didn’t’ want people to hurt. I hope wherever he is he’s okay. I think he is.
If there’s something after death, he will be OK, for sure.
All that rambling typing has made me sleepy so that’s good (please don’t feel obligued to print all that it’s pretty damn long!) ,Travelling the endless night road, Bree:-o»>****
But I don’t feel obligued to nothing, you, silly girl, I love your mails xD
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